Friday, March 28, 2008

What am I thinking?

Being the type A person I am, I enjoy structure. Nothing wrong with that. Structure in my mind provides comfort. I know exactly where things go. I'm good with that. I come home each day to the ritual of straightening first one carpet runner then the next. I know exactly where they should hit the floor. I start each day at work straightening the binders on the shelves so they look organized. My desk at work looks the same in the morning and at night. Again, works for me.

So what the heck was I thinking. A DOG? Do you people have any idea what is involved in house breaking a puppy? Yeah, well clearly I have lost my mind.

I had already determined we would kennel the dog. That matches my personality right?! Kenneling the dog will give the dog structure and security. It will feel safe and understand the boundaries of our home. Who am I kidding? It will eliminate mess and destruction and give me the control that makes me secure.

However, do you realize that I voluntarily signed up for potty wake ups every three hours while Koda is a puppy? What is the matter with me?

I determined before giving birth to Maddy and Hunter that my children would be schedule fed. Demand feeding was not for me. Wow does that topic open a can of worms! Anyway, I chose this because, well, hello, I'm type A. Both children were sleeping through the night at 6 weeks of age. Perfect!

Do you realize that puppies whimper incessantly if they feel alone, scared, etc.? Yeah that doesn't work for me. Should have thought about that sooner.

Well let me tell you dog no matter cute and cuddly will break my will for structure. It will not sleep anywhere but in its kennel. It will not run the house or control the family. It will follow the rules of our will...

1 comment:

Tricia said...

Eager to meet you, Koda!!

Walking in the Light

Wow! This year year has been a whirlwind to say the least. I am shocked we are near the half way point in February. Part of me wants to dance. If the start of the year is any indication of how it is going to go, I am happy it's flying by. I will usher in 2009 with bells and whistles.

Yet, I am humbly reminded that every day is a gift, and I need to walk in the Light. I need to let Him guide me through each day. I need to listen to His still, quiet voice...Yeah I know for me that's a stretch. I'm never still long enough to catch my breath.

As I write this, our dear neighbor of ten years is fighting stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I am awed by the faith she has in God. I am humbled by the fight she has within her to beat the demon we know as cancer. Hunter, in his six year old wisdom said to me, "Mommy, why are you sad? We are just going to pray and Jesus is going to make her better." The faith of a child and the living testimony of one who is dwelling in God's amazing grace reminds me to walk daily in the His unfailing light.