Friday, July 18, 2008

My Friend Jen

We received word from Ray that Hospice is coming in to help with the Jen's passing from this earth to Heaven.

She is in unbelievable pain. Wednesday the doctor's removed over 15 pounds of fluid from her body. Her liver and kidneys have failed. The most the doctor's can do for her is manager her pain and make her comfortable.

While I am thankful that her pain and endless suffering will be over, I am dumbfounded by the loss. I can only imagine the grief and pain that Ray is enduring. I can't look across the street without crying.

I am ashamed at my lack of strength, while the ones closest to her, her dearly loved family faces the future without her.

I don't understand the ways of God sometimes. I can't see how this can ever come together for their good. I guess I have to trust God when He said, "My thoughts are not your thoughts, and My Ways are not your ways."

1 comment:

Kennedy Krew said...

Again, I am so sorry Janet!! I am praying hard for peace for you and especially for her family!!

Walking in the Light

Wow! This year year has been a whirlwind to say the least. I am shocked we are near the half way point in February. Part of me wants to dance. If the start of the year is any indication of how it is going to go, I am happy it's flying by. I will usher in 2009 with bells and whistles.

Yet, I am humbly reminded that every day is a gift, and I need to walk in the Light. I need to let Him guide me through each day. I need to listen to His still, quiet voice...Yeah I know for me that's a stretch. I'm never still long enough to catch my breath.

As I write this, our dear neighbor of ten years is fighting stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I am awed by the faith she has in God. I am humbled by the fight she has within her to beat the demon we know as cancer. Hunter, in his six year old wisdom said to me, "Mommy, why are you sad? We are just going to pray and Jesus is going to make her better." The faith of a child and the living testimony of one who is dwelling in God's amazing grace reminds me to walk daily in the His unfailing light.